Cozy :
I'm really sorry for the lack of activity on the story. I haven't abandoned this, I promise - In fact, my absence is firing me up to write the story better.
It's just, well, Messiah is the most boring of the 3 routes. It has nothing exciting, it has no drama, not as much action, it's... Just bland. Even when I'm getting to one of the good parts of the story where Deku becomes berserk, I can't pull myself together to focus on the story. (Sadly enough.)
The ending is also the most anti-climactic and least exciting. But yeah, I have it all down.
And, well, it's time I started writing an outline for the story. For various reasons, this story's progress is really slow. I know I've always been hyped and I really want to type beyond the Messiah 20 standard I set for myself, but I can't get my act together enough to keep typing.
But, well, my story-writing ability has a fundamental flaw - I don't write outlines when I write.
In fact, everything I've written thus far (not just Words of Power Quest) has always been built on from my own mind. I imagine what will happen, I picture them out, and like an artist I paint it fluidly. That's how I managed to make this story so. Damn. Long.
It's this method of story-writing that makes me paint out the story in the way I desire. It makes the story unique because the data is in my head, and it twists and twirls according to my emotions and states. It has no fixed shape, and I mold it in the form I desire. That's the fun part of the story - The three routes all offer a different experience, because all three routes have different sub-genres.
Messiah is more of a pure Fantasy with a little bit of comedy, thus the light-hearted jokes strewn throughout the series thus far. I can joke with it, I can make situations and make coincidental jokes that happen along the way because I write the story in this format - Without a set idea, I can re-imagine the elements better and make more jokes along the way. Like, my obsession with Rinnesfeld, for example.
Herald is more of Drama & Dark fantasy. Katachi gradually succumbs to despair, and is saved by an entity similar to Yvolki - The Wolf of Fear, Hraxiif. There's some disturbing elements inside (spoilers) that would include kidnapping, bondage, graphic character deaths, etc. It's also my greatest forte, because I am apparently resilient towards anything of the horror genre - I can stare at bile leaking out from a real human's torso and remain unfazed. I really can, too - And that means I have the guts to stomach writing stuff that even frightens myself.
Endus Reignum is an Action / Romantic tragedy. How it is... I won't spoil. But, well, if you have read my notes or my "Embarrassing stockpile of scraps and collections of works I've done." on Wattpad, well, Endus Reignum is sort of a humongous cross-over with another one of the series there. Except not really - There's a specific series of mine that has characters who simply do cross-overs and cross-overs alone due to their nature.
See? It's fun. Words of Power Quest is very fun for me to write. I feel at ease when I have the keyboard in hand and a blank blogger post before me. In a single story, I've given myself a chance to tackle 6 different genres at a go. It's not just a fun way of writing out and internalizing my psyche, it's also an extremely precious experience.
Many people settle for simple stories. Boy meets girl, they fall in love, etc. But sometimes they refuse to accept change because it's convenient for them - Stepping out into an unknown element, being mocked and ostracized for what they believe the ideal is, all of that fear is mortifying for a normal person, and yet I invite and relish that sort of challenge.
Perhaps it's because of my stoicism towards peer pressure and the like which allows me to write as I please, allowing me to delve into the deepest and darkest parts of that genre, challenging everything head-on. (Does it remind you of Dardicel? I sometimes think this imaginary God is actually challenging me. Or maybe it's the reverse - My desire for challenge makes me create a God of Trials to present me with trials.) Well, I'm about to face a big trial, anyway - Growing up and growing older.
Very soon, I shall lose my status as a student on May 27th, and I will have to work and begin providing for myself even before that period. I would have to enlist and take part in compulsory National Service, and exercise my body to become an 'ideal soldier', to fight a war that contradicts our 'period of peace'.
I'm not a fan of war, personally - But I gladly accept the challenge of working as an adult. I don't even know what work I want to look for - Networking? Programming? Or perhaps pursue an editor's career? I don't know.
Not in this god-awful place Singapore. Singapore may have its advantages, and I strongly believe that if every Singaporean was replaced with a scientist or researcher, we can climb to new heights with the advantage of convenience and the great position it has - Free from natural disasters and the like, ample amounts of rainfall, there's so much to work with. Land is no obstacle in the face of technological progress.
But Singapore's society and media favors people who will work for the country. Those whom would offer their services and patriotism to the country are the ones with the high paycut. I may like Singapore, but that doesn't mean I like its citizens. Those are two different matters altogether.
With its size, it is extremely vulnerable to wide-area attacks like EMPs. And yet Singapore continually builds up on the amount of technology it has, 'boasting' their military advantage when they're clearly copying the technologies of other countries. No wonder programmers and cryptologists earn so much - Software has become much more valuable than hardware right now.
I'd like to earn a lot, a whole bunch, and migrate away someday - Because the fact that Singapore is already strategically disadvantaged in actual urban combat is not a secret, it's a bloody hot gossip among all the other countries who want to seize it. I'm just revealing that truth to light, I'm not even spoiling a military secret because it's that blatantly obvious. Everyone's going to take advantage of that lack of land to the maximum advantage.
However, I gladly welcome the challenge of growing older. I will pursue a career, excel; in it, earn a good amount, and bid farewell to this place that mocks culture and arts.
At least, rejoice - I'm writing Messiah 21 and I'm about 20% done. Just gotta keep my head in the mood to write the most boring route of the three.
Signing off,
Cozy
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